i feel like i’ve forgotten how to socialize. like i don’t know how to interact with people anymore. i’m scared. i don’t want to go out because i don’t know how people will react to me. i’ll have to explain what i went through last semester. and then people will pity me.

i don’t know. maybe i’m just being an avoidant fuck. but it’s just so much easier to stay in my room and talk to people i’m comfortable with.

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO INTERACT WITH HUMANS ANYMORE… ughhh.

fuck. i’m making myself leave the room. i don’t even care. but i don’t know where or how or who to talk to. i may just go buy some cigs. yeah.

and smoke on the bench. ima do that.

i should do that soon too. it’s getting cold and dark.

i just. i know i’m not alone. i know it and i feel it.

but i still feel lonely.